So as I am reading chapter 4 of If You Want To Walk On Water (Yes I know I should be reading faster than I am but I am reading quite a few books at this time and so it takes me a little longer than normal to […]
Month: July 2014
As most of you know I am reading a lot of books right now and I just added another one to the list, this one is called Let’s All Be Brave by Annie F. Downs. This book, unlike most of the others, is one that I just simply couldn’t put down. (A lot of the others I have put down after each chapter so I can absorb ALL that you have just read and normally journal and pray over what I have read as well.) There were a few moments where I had to step away and think about what I had just read or take some time and talk to the Lord about the things He was sharing with me through her but I actually couldn’t wait to pick the book up again…once I was done with work, in the morning when I was done with my own time in the Word. I read it while on the elliptical at the gym and spent most of yesterday sitting on my back porch in the Arizona heat gobbling up every last word she had to say, seriously read it in a matter of MAYBE 3 day’s tops.
She describes what she writes as “Memoir-type nonfiction books for Christians” (that comes directly from the book) and that is seriously my favorite kind of story. I love getting to live, even for a moment, in the life of someone else. (Don’t get me wrong I am a HUGE fan of Fiction…Harry Potter, The Hobbit, LOTR, and a few others are books that I have read over and over because I love to live those lives for a few moments…but this book brought it home for me.) She writes so personally and so openly that I felt her emotions as if I was going through them with her. No, a lot of what she has gone through aren’t things that I have or even will go through myself but I was still able to relate so well with her and her writing, maybe that is why I couldn’t walk away from the stories that she was sharing.
The other Christian books that I am reading right now talk about your calling and hearing what God is asking you to do, which is amazing and I am soaking up every word but they kind of have to be vague about callings and the path God has planned for us simply because so many different people on so many different paths are reading these books. Well when Annie talks about callings or the path God has for us she actually uses a few examples and they are very straight forward. I really feel that God spoke DIRECTLY to my heart through this book. So thankful that I listened when I heard that whisper that I should get the book.
***Just as a disclaimer, I was not asked to talk about this book, to review this book in any way and I have bought the book with my own money in case anyone thinks other wise (which I doubt, I am not so cool that I am being asked to review books)
About 3 weeks before we were to move to Arizona Adam got a call for a job that he had interviewed with a few months prior in the oil industry (now if you know ANYTHING about the economy you know that ND has oil just flowing and people are running up there to get jobs and the jobs pay WELL). They offered him the job the DAY we were to be leaving. Now this was not an easy conversation for us to have, it was what I call a “marital conversation”, and the dogs went running since there was so much yelling. We didn’t know what to do, we had already planned on leaving, the house we were
renting was SOLD and we had nowhere to live in a town that was charging an arm and a leg for rent and it would be double for the dogs. But the money was so good and even if it was for a short amount of time, we would still be able to get out of some of the debt we had found ourselves in. After the yelling there was prayer, the prayer should have been first but it wasn’t. As we were praying Adam felt God tell him to stay, for me to leave and him to stay on in Minot and work. As soon as we finished praying he told me this and all at once I felt at peace about the whole situation.
Just because I felt at peace about it doesn’t make it easy by any stretch. I am kind of alone down here with one friend (who is amazing BTW) and the dogs. Since I am not working every day or even every other day I get a little stuck, I start going a little stir crazy, hence the blog and Youtube Channel. I have this feeling that God is doing something in our lives and just like with the flood and losing our house 3 years ago (that is another story in itself) I know God will be glorified in all that is going on. We are not supposed to know His every move and why He does what He does in our lives, we are supposed to trust. That still doesn’t make it easy to be apart from the man I love.
So how are we making it through these months apart??? Phone calls, every day, twice a day. Skype: every once in a while, not sure why it isn’t more often but it isn’t. Scripture: together on his days off we read the Bible together. Prayer: we pray together, not every night but regularly we pray together. We have a few visits scheduled, like in Aug we are going to have him come down for a weekend, my bestie is getting married in Sept so we will see each other then and maybe for Thanksgiving or a little before that. Again this is not easy for either of us. I am a touchy feely kind of person with him and miss kissing him and holding his hand. That is the hardest for me, if he comes to bed with me then I fall asleep holding his hand, if he comes to bed later I almost always wake up and then hold his hand.
So yes I am missing my husband like crazy BUT what he is doing for us is setting us up for success in the future. I believe that God takes care of us and this is the way He is doing it. I also believe that God is helping us both grow in ways that might not happen if we were together, if he was down here or if I had stayed there (Which by the way was NOT an option). This is one of those life lessons that God is teaching us and I don’t actually know what I should be learning and might not know for a while…it might simply be TO TRUST HIM…whatever the lesson is, that is what I am going to do throughout this whole experience, Trust in the Lord and KNOW He has something in store for us.
Matthew 21:42 “Jesus said to them, “Have you never read in the Scriptures: ‘The stone which the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone. This was the Lord’s doing, and it is marvelous in our eyes’?” This morning after a long night with a rather sick dog […]