Inadequate…To The World
Do you have feel that you are just not good enough? In anything? The other day I was sitting thinking about all that I need to do for the film…Casting, budgeting, wardrobe, crew, locations, shoot schedule…and I started to feel SO overwhelmed. I am not sure why either. I knew about this list and more as I started getting the script finalized. I have each thing that needs to be done broken down with a done by date next to it. So why am I feeling inadequate? Why am I feeling like I am not able to do this, that I am not good enough? Well, because I’m not… THEN GOD…(I know, not BUT GOD…it just didn’t fit in the sentence structure in my mind.) THEN GOD reminded me, Peter, James, John along with the rest of the Apostiles weren’t good enough either. Peter, Andrew, James and John were all fishermen… not preachers, not travelers…BUT GOD called them to do something and they went out and did it.
And Jesus, walking by the Sea of Galilee, saw two brothers, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea; for they were fishermen. Then He said to them, “Follow Me, and I will make you fishers of men.” They immediately left their nets and followed Him.
I honestly believe that I if I realized how under-qualified I was for this task that I might not have picked that pen up at the very beginning but I am already too deep in to let it go. So here is to dropping my net, taking a leap of faith and following after Him!!