Lent started on Wednesday (March 1st). What a beautiful way to start my favorite month. I love the season of Lent, I love the thought of letting go of something we hold dearly, whether that is food like Christ did in the wilderness or as many people I know things such as TV, Social Media or something else and turning that energy back to where it belongs. The thought process is to let go so that you can turn your attention towards God and prepare our hearts for Easter. This year I have decided that I am not giving a real THING up, it isn’t something tangible but something that has a crippling hold on my heart. It’s my own desires.
I truly believe that the Lord has placed being a film maker and a photographer on my heart, that sharing His Gospel message with the world through my art is my calling. But even something that the Lord has blessed you with can become something that gets in the way of really worshiping and praising Him, becomes an idol in your mind and becomes your soul focus instead of The Lord. I am not letting go of that dream of being a film maker, or stopping my camera time but what I am doing during my prayer time is simply coming before Him and saying YOUR WILL BE DONE.
I want nothing more than His Will to be done in mine and Adams’ lives. We strive for that, or at least those words come out of our mouth as we pray together but to be honest there is a part of me that doesn’t really believe it or doesn’t really want it. I would much rather still ask for what I want, and that really isn’t the way this whole thing works. When you turn your life over to Christ then you let go (or are at least supposed to) of what you want and turn to what He wants. That is so much easier said then done.
Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass.
This is my life scripture and what I love about it, is that when it says “and He shall give you the desires of your heart.” It doesn’t mean that if you do good you will get ALL that you want, but when you are aligning yourself with the Lord, your desires will become the ones He has for you. I have prayed over this calling and know it is right but I want to make sure that I am still walking in His will, on His path and making the right choices every day that lead to the correct destination. Besides the journey is half the fun of the trip right? I want to see what the Lord teaches me as I walk down this path towards His calling on my life. I KNOW it will end up being a million times better then I could ever imagine for my life.