In your walk with the Lord there will be hills and valleys, deserts and rainforests. For me, I am in a desert. I am in a dry spell of studying the Word, of hearing His voice, and of even understanding scripture. And you know what??? It’s OK. I just want to make sure that I come out of this desert strong, and focused on the Word. While I am wandering around, it is hard to hear Him…I don’t know if He isn’t speaking right now or if I just have my ears closed to tightly but I am not hearing much. I am feel numb almost. I still believe, I still trust, I still have faith, I am still praying and reading but just kind of…BLAH. And that is OK. I don’t want to be here forever, but I don’t want to rush out if God has something for me to learn here.
Over the years I have found that I rush through things. I remember thinking during our vacation the winter that lead into my final year in the Air Force that if I could just by-pass the entire year I would be happy. I feel that I missed out on a lot during that year because I had that mentality. I had the same thought process while in Arizona for those 7 months alone…”I will just wait until Adam gets here to do…X Y & Z.” And that was the worst way to live down there, I didn’t do anything, I didn’t experience much.
Everyone keeps asking us what we are planning on doing now that I am back. I HAVE NO CLUE. We are waiting. We are sitting in the desert waiting. We have a 6 month lease on this apartment, God might tell us in month 3 or he might tell us at month 5 and day 28 what He has planned for us, but either way we are waiting. It isn’t easy, let me tell you. I read something from RELEVANT Mag. that really stood out, almost yelling at me and helped me see that waiting isn’t a bad thing,
“I’ve always believed God is just as interested in the journey as he is the destination. If not, all the biblical accounts would only include the feel good parts and not the good, the bad and the ugly of the times of waiting. We may not always understand why we have to wait, but the good news is that God never asks us to wait without Him.”
Part of me wants to have something planned, to have a goal to reach for but I don’t think we are in a place to have a major goal ahead of us. We have small goals that we have set with our money, my fitness and my personal business but nothing huge. I want to see what God has for us. Once He tells us what we should do, then we will move forward, but for now it might be best to sit here, quietly, in the desert and wait on Him.
“To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven.”
“Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!“
Let me know in the comments below if you have been or are in a desert right now. What do you feel you learned while sitting there waiting on the Lord?